now that letter writer from prison got really out of hand..  i had to completely stop reading his letters becuz one of them was detailed about our meeting, his beating me to a bloody pulp, making me dig my own grave, his raping me and then burying me..  becuz i haven't responded to any of his letters..  

i freaked out when i read that letter..  i'm still not sure what to do since a possible backlash on me could happen..  most of the hardened types have "friends" on the outside who could come after you..  and that is a fact..

for now, i'm just not reading his letters anymore so that i can not consciously worry about this..  but of course that's something you can't forget..  i'm wanting to handle this anonymously with the prison so that he doesn't know i said something..  but i don't trust the prison enough that they would handle it without endangering me further..  and apparently i'm not the only one he's writing some strange weird bizarre letters to..  something needs to be done but i'm still not sure what..

on the upside of this..  due to those scary letters.. it triggered a pretty frightening dream that helped me get over my writers block on the writing project i was working on..    the dream was pretty scary about my surrendering to a psycho stalker so that others wouldn't be hurt..  granted the dream wasn't the upside..  the inspiration for the writing was..  i finished writing my story.. and now onto the fine tuning of it and sent it to a few people for their honest opinions on what needs to be fixed on it..

and then in my lots of spare time in between work..  i've been watching one of my xmas presents i received..  a 4 or 5 dvd set of 50 HORROR CLASSICS..  there's movies on both sides of the discs and they've been ranging from 30s to 80s types of horror movies..  it's been lots of fun to watch to help me mush my brain from the horrors of my life..  LOL!!

i sometimes feel like FADE TO BLACK(1980)..  which i saw recently..  a poor schmuck just can't get a break and finds his solace in watching classic movies..  then ends up killing people dressed as his favorite characters from those movies..  of course i'm not gonna do that part, the killing part..  but it is sometimes fun to think about..  

have you ever wondered if your life felt like a movie?  

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