How do you stay positive in a negative situation?  I mean I have acheived this on numerous occasions, but when you are lower managment and you have to be a cheerleader for the company to the other employees constantly and never get a chance to "turn it off". 

To get to the heart of my "mindless" whines:  For the, I have no idea how many days but more than not, I again am forced to work over.  I already work 12 hous a day 5 days a week as a Paramedic/Asst. Manager.  I have a life outside of work I seem to never get to experiance unless I call off work. 

Crews on "24 on / 48 off" shift get off on time more than not and then have two days in a row off.  As of writing this blog I am working over 2.5 hours and counting.  I then have to be back at 7 in the morning.  I have tried to talk to my manager about it and anymore get blown-off it seems.

Talking about my manager.  When he first hired in the company in that position, he was here everyday.  He then was placed as marketing and manager of an additional station.  He is hardly ever here anymore which is why I am working 12 hours 5 days a week instead of the 24 hour shift.  His attitude has changed since he has been in this new position.  I've tried to talk to him about it and he just doesn't see it.  Even when he first got the position he is in we had good communication and I was able to my mangement job/responsibilities with little difficulty.  Now I am lucky if he returns my call by the next day and for the past couple of months he has micromanaging me.  When I ask for anykind of job evaluation I get the "your doing a great job, no problems" speech.  He gets off on time and goes fishing. By the time I get off I barely have time to eat supper before I NEED to go to bed let alone not being able to housework, see my kids games, scout activities, or even just their company.  My manager used to be a General Contractor and got out of that line to do what he is doing so he could be home with his son.  He now acts as if he doesn't know what it is like.  I'm sorry, I take pride in my job regardless what it is and I used to enjoy this job with the extra challenges and with that I am not salaried but I am called by crews with problems when I am off, I have made phone calls to find coverage for shifts when I have been off on vacation with my own phone because it is what needed done and I can't do any less.  So forgive me if I think I should have a little something more than the average crew.  At least getting off on time would be a start. 

I don't know why the company doesn't take the extra work off of my managers shoulders and make me manager with two days during the week to get managment work done so I am not stressing to try to get it done while doing runs. 

I thrive on stress but with job satisfaction as a reward and I am not getting the satisfaction right now just what feels like abuse because I am in this position.

I could keep going on and on but my fingers are starting to get tired and can't keep up with my vey pissed off thoughts.  And yes I am still here.

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